Dear Family & Friends,
Words cannot express our love and appreciation for you all. Your prayers, thoughts, good vibes, whatever it may be, we felt so much support from each and every one of you.
Going through In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) and a Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) is very hard physically and emotionally. It is so helpful having a support team. Whether you are family, friends, or an acquaintance, you are a part of our team. We could not do this alone, and you are a huge part of our life and story.
This morning I went in for the HCG blood draw, to find out if I was pregnant or not. The nurse told me that they would call me with the results in the afternoon.
Sadly, they called and told me that the test came back negative.
We have been full of frustration, confusion, anger, and devastation. I haven't been able to talk much, but have been able to cry and scream. I know as the days go on things will get easier, but it will take some time.
As of now, we don't know when we will continue with another round. We will be meeting with Dr. Foulk (our fertility specialist) this coming month on November 21st; we hope to learn more about what issues may have caused the FET to be unsuccessful and to learn what steps lie ahead.
Although this isn't the result we were hoping and praying for, we believe it's all in the Lord's plan and timing...and we choose to accept that.
My dad shared a scripture with me that was perfect for the timing and situation today. "Wait on the Lord: be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart; wait, I say, on the Lord." (Psalms 27:14)
Thank you again for being there for us. We are so grateful for all of your love and support.
Love,
Ali and Scott
Oh Ali, I can't imagine what you must be going through. Even though you are so sad and heartbroken, you still have such a positive attitude and such strong faith! I admire you so much. I am praying for you and will be fasting for you again this Sunday (we fasted for you last month!) Hang in there girl! Love you!!
ReplyDeleteI haven't experienced this loss or this heartache, but I would say just be gentle with yourself. There's no right or wrong way to feel--just feel what you feel and give yourself time. What a difficult journey you must be on.
ReplyDeleteI admire your faith in the Lord's plan for you and Scott. This is not an easy journey but I know Heavenly Father is aware of your's and Scott's desires. Thank you for keeping us updated. You two will be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteElder Bednar teaches us that "The unique burdens in each of our lives help us to rely on the merits, mercy, and grace of the holy Messiah." His grace is sufficient for us in all our anger and pleading. I feel like it's important to let yourself just feel through it. After having spent 14 years trying to bring kids into our family, that talking about my experiences really helps. Promising myself some time where I can grieve without feeling responsible for anyone else's feelings. And then making sure to move through grief and into healing so I don't get stuck there. There is an image that is especially healing for me. Somewhere in the world there is a statue of a mother bent over in grief, and the depiction of her child she has lost or the child she's waiting for, is across from her. This image was incredibly healing for me and heartbreaking at the same time. I look at it fondly and remember the little ones we lost trying to bring our family into this world. And it gives me comfort when I feel that tremendous hurt and longing for more children that might never come. Sometimes the distance between what I hope for all my life and what we have seems really huge. Sing this image and thinking about the possibility that my babies are actually very close helps me so much. I thought I would share it.
ReplyDeletehttps://goo.gl/images/YId9mh There is some controversy as to whether or not the artist meant this is a pro life work of art or not. But it mean something entirely different to me. Sorry to hear things didn't turn out the way you'd hoped. Someday I sure hope it does.
Love and hugs to you
ReplyDeleteMy heart hurts for you. I can't imagine what you must be going through. Just know that you are not alone. Love and prayers to you my friend.
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